To Walk on Fertile Ground

Having trouble sleeping tonight. My stomach just keeps turning over and over. I keep thinking about all of the packing I need to be doing and the throwing away of old things that are unnecessary in our new life. I decided to get up and run a hot bath, and as usual...I had to hunt for a book to read. Since we packed up all of our "Books to keep" last night, this was a predicament.

I came across a book I had been given by a local author named Kristi Brown while I was working as a manager in a chain bookstore. On the back cover of the book it described a spiritual journey through the difficulties of infertility and cancer, two subjects near to my heart. My mother died of cancer what will be two years ago this month. Hard to believe. And I have always had an irrational fear of infertility. Difficulty conceiving runs in my family, and I have always desperately wanted a baby of my own. For those reasons, I have been putting off reading this little book.

Tonight, feeling reflective and restless, I gave it a chance.

I can't describe to you, whoever you are, the emotions that I went through reading it from cover to cover in my hot to lukewarm bath. This woman, Kristi Brown, imparted wisdom and spiritual nuggets of gold on almost every page. Being a somewhat lapsed Methodist who became a lapsed Catholic, I found new reasons in this book to begin to open my heart up again to God. If one person can endure, or rather, overcome such momentous life hurdles through the help of God, who am I to say, "Well, yeah, but what can he do for ME?" The question posed to me by Ms. Brown is, "What can I do for me THROUGH him?"

This book is available through amazon.com for $14.99. I encourage you to buy it and read it and pass it on. I only wish I had really taken the time to get to know this woman when she approached me in my store.